We are overjoyed to announce the release of the revised and updated Conscious Feelings book by Clinton Callahan. (Until October it is only available from the publisher.)
The original Directing The Power Of Conscious Feelings was published in June 2010. Twelve years have elapsed since then – fantastically rich discovery years, with new Thoughtmaps crafted, new Distinctions hacked, new Processes and Experiments developed. The pain of offering outdated and incomplete information in the original book grew. Then the original book sold out!
This opened the door for Clinton to spend three months re-writing the manuscript from start to finish so as to include all that had changed, all that had been discovered. Every word of the book was revisited. The result is worth celebrating!
Imagine not sensing your 5th Body… Imagine not knowing about Gremlin Transformation, or Adult Egostate Decontaminations… Imagine not getting it about White Widow, Grey Widow, or Black Widow... Imagine not finding your way into the Archetypal Domains with Maps for 5 Body Intimacy Journeys… All these are in the new book, along with clear instructions for 73 Matrix-Building Experiments that you can try in your own Relating, each with its Matrix Code for registering in the StartOver.xyz game!
Conscious Feelings is a treasure-chest full of Thoughtware for Archiarchy.
Think of how many people might enjoy this wealth of new ideas for a Christmas present!
Think of where you can leave a copy of Conscious Feelings at a favorite Café where people come to refresh themselves with new perspectives.
Consider holding a Study Group to read Conscious Feelings together with your friends.
Try to remember when you first learned that there is a difference between Feelings and Emotions, how much that changed your life.
Think back on your first low-level Feelings Experiments and how exciting it is to discover that you can lower your Numbness Bar and start using the practical intelligence and energy of Low-Level Feelings.
How many of your friends and colleagues are still without this Clarity in their daily lives and relationships? What needless pain do they still create and suffer for themselves?
Each book you place out there is a Golden Ticket to a new world for somebody!
We hope that you are as excited as we are about this updated opportunity!
From the introduction:
Modern society is terrified of cults or sects, whose leaders might brainwash their victims to surrender their will to serve evil purposes. Actually... this is a perfect description of what already exists in modern society. Perhaps the greater fear is of a force that might awaken us citizens from our walking sleep so that we regain natural capacities for living full out, a potential that modern society denies we ever had. Conscious feelings could well be this awakening force.
There is so much more happening in a human life than the mind can manage on its own...
Lowering your Numbness Bar and experiencing Low Intensity Feelings allows you to discover an immensely alive treasury of energy and intelligence immediately within yourself, bubbling along all day just below the surface, supporting you with Clarity, Possibility and energy beyond what the mind can grasp.
Feelings And Pain
So often, the best we are able to do in our life using Standard Human Intelligence Thoughtware (S.H.I.T.) about feelings, is to notice that we are feeling some kind of 'stress, tightness, or awful pain' around the heart area. Maybe you get a headache. Maybe you feel depressed, exhausted, or frustrated.
It can be extremely uncomfortable, like a squeezing of the heart, like an ache deep in the chest.
This 'pain' is the often the result of suppressing your Emotions.
If you keep a high Numbness Bar and use the Old Thoughtmap of Feelings where anger, sadness, and fear are 'bad', 'dangerous', or 'negative', then when your Feelings or Emotions naturally arise, you train your Emotional Body to automatically suppress the information and energy. You may even have installed some kind of Survival Strategy to prevent you from expressing these 'embarrassing' or 'life-threatening' outbursts.
It can be exhausting to exert so much energy to suppress huge emotions for so long. In addition to causing pain, suppressing Feelings and Emotions can also cause severe illnesses, and reactionary irrational behaviors.
Upon realizing what was causing the confusion he had been carrying around all his life about the pain in this chest, one man said, "I want to thank you for what you said to me about pain: that it is suppressed emotion. This insight has given me possibility to build new relationship to pain and begin with new experiments with it. It really works! It helps me a lot to be more authentic. Now I know what to do when I feel pain and how to express it and live it. It also helps me to free myself from programs that I adopted to try to block me from this pain. Now I don't need this protection because now it is easier for me to live the pain, to accept it and express it as an emotion that it really is."
We don't need more people looking for happiness, enlightenment and the next personal benefit from sitting in an endless lotus position. There are enough of people trying this. Happiness is already understood. The reason joy doesn't come, by the way, after countless attempts, is that it is impossible to really hold Conscious Joy without Conscious Anger, Conscious Sadness, and Conscious Fear. That would be Self Deception, Fantasy World, Child Ego State Contaminating the Adult Ego State. It is not transformative.
Seeking only joy is like a child playing in Luna Park, eating sweet pink cotton candy all day long.
We need more scared people, connected to their Conscious Fear, who can try enough new things carefully, and slowly go to the edge of where they have never been, and take one small step beyond what modern society has offered them.
We need more Consciously Sad people, to connect with each other and take down all the guns and shields. Sad women and men who will share the pain of living in this time in intimacy with each other.
We need sad communities that connect to the pain of Earth, and decide to change.
When you have these 4 Emotions active together, happiness does not become something in the future you can aim for, but rather just one of the 4 Emotions you feel at various intensities (from 1% intense to 100% intense) all the time that guides you along your Destiny.
You are invited to open the first door in the direction of the conscious power of your 4 Emotions. After that, you surf them.
Conscious Feelings Experiments
Experimenting means to practice simple skills that build together into greater competence.
Competence to a woman who practices seems like magic to a woman who does not practice.
The Old Map of Feelings keeps you in the Standard Human Intelligence Thought-ware (S.H.I.T.) that your feelings of Anger, Sadness and Fear are ‘bad’, ‘negative’ or ‘dangerous’ and that your Joy whilst ‘positive’ is something to keep hidden from others lest they judge you as ‘naive’ or ‘childish’.
Is that what you want for your one exquisite life?
It only gets worse because maybe your addiction to this Thoughtware and staying numb will end up cutting short your days on this Earth. For Feelings Practitioners have discovered that many physical and mental symptoms and even some severe illnesses have their roots in the suppression of Feelings and Emotions.
Thankfully, as we will soon discover in CONSFEEL.02: something else is possible!
Attempting to force through a change in a lifelong habit like this is insane. First try to change nothing. Simply bring your neutral awareness and noticing to the pattern. Then stand in the pain of what you are doing to yourself.
This Experiment is to use these powers of Self Observation to notice all the ways that you still live on the Old Map of Feelings. Start a new page in your Beep! Book titled ‘WAYS I’M STILL ON THE OLD MAP’. Then record your findings diligently for two weeks like a scientist in a high-precision experiment.
Your Gremlin judges others who for being ‘too emotional’.
You have Voices that keep you on the Old Map. Blast them!
You keep yourself intoxicated on heavy, carbs so that your Numbness Bar remains high at all times.
The minute big Feelings or Emotions come up, your Gremlin whisks you away into a world of Beer, Porn or T.V.
After the two weeks, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.01 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write 3 ways you are still on the Old Map of Feelings. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
EXPERIENTIALLY EXPLORE THE NEW MAP OF FEELINGS
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.02
The New Map of Feelings clarifies that your feelings are simply neutral sources of energy and information. Using this New Thoughtmap changes everything.
Being connected to your feelings jacks you in to the Evolutionary flow of the Universe. You cannot escape change cascading throughout your life. You might quit your job or start a new project. Relationships will be over, begun and (R)evolutionised. Liquid States will do their work on your Box and maybe you will stop knowing who you are and celebrate it!
Your feelings are waiting 24/7 in your Emotional Body to provide you with a never-ending stream of the energy and information needed to follow your Quest, provide your Archetypal Lineage and be your Destiny in Action!
Do you really want to stay cut off from a life of such adventure?
Of course not.
But watch out! You only have access to this inner wealth if you KEEP YOUR FEELINGS PURE. Mixed feelings such as depression, despair and hysteria are part of your Box’s survival strategy. They are not going to help you. Unmix them quick!
This Experiment is to spend 7 days consciously living on the New Map of Feelings. This means navigating every decision, every conversation and every interaction from your pure feelings of anger, sadness, fear and joy. Try starting every sentence with ‘I feel (mad|sad|scared|glad) because…’
After the week, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.02 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write some extraordinary you did with your pure, conscious feelings. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Points.
LIVE IN THE FEELINGS/EMOTIONS DISTINCTION
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.03
Feelings and Emotions are NOT the same.
Emotions are from the past, they last longer than 3 minutes and want to be healed. Welcoming the gifts that they offer through an emotional healing process allows you to evolve into the next version of yourself.
Feelings are from the present, they come up in the small NOW giving you information about what is going on and the energy to do something about it. You can use your feelings to make responsible Proposals to those around you and live in the ecstasy of adult negotiation.
Getting feelings and emotions confused will seriously mess up your life.
The mayhem will begin when you believe that your emotions have something to offer your relationships. You’ll splurge your Reactivity on your partner, children and those around you. Their Gremlin’s will rejoice at the opportunity for a good feeding but the possibility of real intimacy and connection will be well and truly dead in the water.
Do you want to look back on your life and see a string of relationships that failed and loved-ones broken because you don’t get this?
I didn’t think so.
This experiment is to live in the distinction between feelings and emotions. Whatever comes up, ask yourself: “Is this a feeling or an emotion?”. Use your feelings. Heal your emotions. Whenever you share with someone else add on "and this is a feeling, or this is an emotion”. If it’s an emotion, say “this has nothing to do with you, it comes from, bla bla bla... and I will use this emotion as a gateway for an emotional healing process."
Even better, get yourself into an EHP Dojo to regularly heal any emotions that come up.
After the week, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.03 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write the details of an Emotion you noticed and transformed. This Experiment is worth 2 Matrix Points.
Watching these videos is a very effective way to Build Matrix whilst levelling up your space holding skills so that you can provide your Nonmaterial Value to others.
These processes are so powerful that after the 100 days you could quit your Linear Life Plan ‘job’ and create a life for yourself offering the clarity that you have developed.
This experiment is to watch one emotional healing process a day for the next 100 days. Make sure you start each viewing session from First Position so you are truly present to the magic.
During each process:
write down what feelings the Possibility Coach uses and sees in the client and what do they use them for.
write down what you are feeling at the same time.
if it’s an emotion, write down what it’s about and add it to your list of potential emotional healing processes.
notice how much you have in common with those participating in the processes. You can discover your common humanity!
notice the gift that an emotion can be when it is seen as a doorway to an EHP.
After the week, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.04 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write a little about a process you watched that changed you life. This Experiment is worth 100 Matrix Points.
DO A WEEK FOCUSING ON EACH FEELING
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.05
You were born with a feelings detector, giving you the ability to detect feelings and emotions showing up in yourself, others around you and in your spaces.
Conscious practice builds the muscle of your detector so that you can pick up on more and more subtleties in what’s going on. You also slowly realise the immense power and potential provided by your feelings: that they are useful in literally every moment and situation of your life.
This experiment is to dedicate a week to exploring each of the feelings. Shift your identity into a an edgework researcher and spend the week investigating. Start with fear. Then do anger. Then sadness. Then finally joy.
Your Beep! Book is an invaluable tool for this process. Write down everything you notice and discover. Remember “If you don’t write it down, it might as well not have happened”.
Your might explore:
+ how do you perceive people using conscious fear
+ how do other people use conscious fear
+ how could conscious fear have been used, what would have been the different results
+ what are the different uses of conscious fear
+ who do you become when you are tapped into your fear 24/7
At the end of this month long experiment, once you have explored all four feelings, type up your notes and create a really simple article saying "I noticed that fear can be used for this, anger can be used for this and share some little stories”. Your findings can be a powerful resource for others on their path to discovering conscious feelings.
After the week, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.05 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write something you discovered about one of the feelings. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
CHECK-IN WITH YOUR FEELINGS TWICE A DAY
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.06
As a child of Modern Culture, you were taught from an early age to stay numb.
You built a Numbness Bar inside of yourself that allowed you to stay safe in your childhood when it was too dangerous to express the raw power and potential of your feelings to those around you.
You learnt to distract yourself from your feelings. To push them away with snacking, sleeping, sex and T.V.
An army of numb Zombies, is just what is needed to power the corporate machine that is destroying life on Earth.
Getting your feelings back is a powerful gift back to Gaia.
This experiment is to check-in with your feelings twice a day for 10 minutes for the next two weeks.
You can follow these steps:
Stop everything, sit down, don’t lie down because you will fall asleep.
Your emotional body will tell you what’s going on.
Go for the low level feelings.
Try to be completely okay with your anger, your sadness, your fear and you joy so that you are on the new map of feelings.
If you notice a reaction against feeling anger, sadness, fear or joy, then write it down in your beep book and use it as a doorway for an emotional healing process. This is an EHP about a feeling. For example, it’s not okay to feel fear because….
For every emotion that comes up: DO THE PROCESS. This is the fuel for your evolution.
You might want to write a conscious feelings journal during this time.
Do this for 10 minutes 2x a day for 2 weeks.
Practice so that your inner navigation sense gets turned on not just during the check-ins but all the time. You can ongoingly be aware of what your Emotional Body is feeling and harvest it as a rich information source.
After the two weeks, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.06 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write a little description of an emotion about feeling that you processed during the 2 weeks. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
Having access to your anger also allows you to hold yourself and feel safe whilst delving into the territory of the other feelings.
This is why we suggest your first journey into Conscious Feeling is through Rage Club.
This is your chance to let the Warrior or Warrioress within you back into you life. You've been keeping yourself small for too long now and the world needs you more than ever.
This experiment is to get yourself into an 8-week online Rage Club so you can make a seismic shift in your relationship to Conscious Anger.
After the series, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.07 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write something you discovered about your anger during the series. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
To create something new in any area of your life you need your Fear.
You are likely stuck under the Baggage of Emotional Fear showing it's head in the forms of anxiety, stress and worry. With no access to the mind blowing amounts of information that you fear has for you and the abundant energy it has for you to do something about it!
This experiment is to get yourself in an 8-week online Fear Club so that you can activate your Conscious Fear and turn on the Magician, Sorceress or Creator within.
After the series, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.08 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write something you discovered about your fear during the series. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
CREATE A CONSCIOUS FEELINGS PRACTICE TEAM
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.09
Learning to consciously feel alone is hard work.
In Modern Culture, you live as 'lone wolf' priding yourself on doing it alone and managing without any help whatsoever. Asking would be too scary.
It's time to break out of the 'lone wolf' prison.
This experiment is to create yourself a team of fellow inner navigators and go on a discovery journey together into this new territory.
You could start by meeting every week for a four feelings check-in. This means taking turns to inner navigate through the four feelings for a set amount of time for example 10 minutes.
After the teams , please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.09 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write about one of the wild conscious feelings legends created by your team. This Experiment is worth 4 Matrix Points.
GO TO AN EXPAND THE BOX
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.10
Expand the Box Trainings (ETBs) are the ideal space to learn the main distinctions around conscious feeling and much more.
It's a transformational space of Rapid Learning. Which means that you get the feedback and coaching you need until the upgraded Thoughtware of conscious feelings and so much more has landed in your 5 bodies.
The resulting Liquid States mean you will not be the same person when you return.
I guarantee it.
This experiment is to commit to an ETB before you know how. Will the dates work? Will I be able to afford it? Go for it and let the universe rearrange itself according to your commitment.
After the series, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.10 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write something you discovered about your anger during the series. This Experiment is worth 21 Matrix Points.
NAVIGATE CONSCIOUS FEELINGS AT A DANCE PARTY
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.11
This experiment is to get yourself to your nearest dance party. Don't forget to bring your Beep!Book and trusty Possibility Stone.
Spend the whole party ongoingly lowering your Numbness Bar whilst inner navigating your feelings.
Notice what happens when:
somebody looks at you or does not look at you.
somebody talks to you or not.
somebody does something to somebody else that you like or do not
when the music is too fast, too slow, too loud.
Create a new page in your Beep!Book titled 'FEELINGS AT DANCE PARTY'. Write down everything you feel.
Remember that if it's gone out of your body in less than 3 minutes it's a Feeling. If not it's an Emotion.
The feelings will often be about taking care of yourself:
using the toilet
getting out of the way from the wild dancing
protecting yourself from a large Gremlin character
The rest are emotions that can be very big like:
your fear of being excluded
your need for competition
your need to show off.
your desire to run away and hide
or be shy
or the fear of dancing like Anne-Chloe by the edge of the pool.
Keep in mind that these are all potential EHPs. When you get back: book the biggest processes.
A huge value of becoming conscious of your feelings is noticing how many of what you thought are feelings are actually emotions, each one being a doorway to an ehp after doing which you unfold a new dimension of your own adulthood capacities.
After the party, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.11 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write something felt that you were surprised about. This Experiment is worth 2 Matrix Points.
DO A 3-3-3 INITIATION
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.12
An Initiation is any process that allows you to take more responsibility.
After the 3 months is over, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.12 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. Please write an article about your experience and put a link to it in the Proof section. This Experiment is worth 12 Matrix Points.
EAT ONLY NEW FOODS FOR AN EVENING
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.13
Since childhood you have been hammered into Verbal Reality, where words prevail, and the experience disappears once you have named the thing. The beauty and joy of living in pure experience is lost.
Most likely, you get to the end of a meal having not really tasted much of it. You walk through a forest, barely aware of what’s around you. You make love to your partner but remain stuck in your head.
This is reality before we have split everything up into categories and slapped words on them.
This experiment is to get into Experiential Reality by spending an evening eating only foods that you have never had before. Try some worms. Or Grasshoppers. Or that weird vegetable that always stares at you ominously in the supermarket.
Notice how you give you center away to these weird foods
When you pick them up, what feelings comes?
When you look at them what feeling comes?
Eat them slowly and notice each feeling as they come.
After dinner, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.13 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write weirdest, wackiest thing that you ate. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Points.
CELEBRATE FEELING YOUR FIRST 50% INTENSE FEELING
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.14
At some point on your journey of unleashing the power of your conscious feelings, you will discover all of a sudden, that you can have a feeling that is more than 50% intense.
Use this feeling and then it will go away forever.
As you've always probably only felt Emotions about 50%, this will feel like you are going crazy.
This experiment is to have a Conscious Feeling party with your friends to celebrate!
Start the party telling them about your journey and the moment of your first Conscious Feeling of 50%.
Have them all say "I feel (mad, sad, glad or scared) because....".
Make non-alcoholic drinks that all have a name of a conscious feeling.
Make spaces in the house for feeling each of the feelings. A dojo ready for anger. A cushion room for fear. A water alter for sadness. A plinth outside for shouting your conscious joys to the world.
Make food in the shape of dragons, worms and archetypal characters.
After dinner, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.14 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please write down what your 50% feeling was about. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Points.
LET YOUR EMOTIONAL BODY WRITE
Matrix Code CONSFEEL.15
With your Numbness Bar lowered, the shift made onto the New Map of Feelings and your pure feelings of Anger, Sadness, Fear and Joy pulsing through your nervous system: you are in the perfect place to create.
This experiment is to let your emotional body speak to you through writing. This means let your feelings and emotions move your fingers or the pen. Keep going for 25 minutes. Keep your mind out of it. It might want to judge or try to understand what you're writing or see if it 'makes sense'. Don't let it.
The point of the writing is to give your Emotional Body a written voice platform. Use what is coming through to write a short story with a beginning, a middle and an end. Where something is surprisingly transformed or healed. Go with a surprising but not shocking outcome. Do 3 pages then publish it online somewhere for us all to see!
Notice what each of the feelings contributes to the story. What does the Anger, Sadness, Fear and Joy each in their own unique way bring?
After the writing session, please register Matrix Code CONSFEEL.15 in your free account at StartOver.xyz. In the Proof section, please put a link to your creation. This Experiment is worth 1 Matrix Points.
Note: if you do this 12 times, you have a book of short stories.